Struggle to Create My Art
Day 4 – Technical Glitches
Ugh! A few minutes ago I completed a blog post about exhaustion and how it contributes to the struggle to create my art.
When I saved it I lost it because the internet had a glitch! Dang glitch.
I’m exhausted from technical breakdowns.
So excited to be getting some tech help tomorrow. That will most certainly add a few more winks to my sleep and give me more energy to create my art.
Struggle to Create My Art: Day 3 – Opening and Closing Doors
Today’s message presented itself to me in the middle of the night as I was opening my eyes. I felt a door closing as another was opening.
When we try to hold a big, steel door open that wants to close we are resisting the flow. The universe is setup in such a way that rewards us for letting go of the resistance.
Years back when my ergonomic business had slowed down I experienced a challenge in paying the office rent and after communication with the building management I was given permission to move out. As I was packing up my office I received a phone call from a client and within 48 hours a $50,000 consulting project fell into my lap. This led to much more expansion a few years later.
Struggle to Create My Art – Day 2
The artist in me is awakening. She is not even close to her potential. I am on this journey to awaken her. I wonder how far she will awake. It has been my biggest dream and desire to be an artist.
And along the way I discovered the joy of helping others to be inspired.
Sometimes I have been told.
Sometimes I have been copied.
Sometimes I have been ridiculed.
I have been known to crawl back in my shell when I did not have the courage to stay present with my art.
The Struggle To Create My Art Blog Journey
The struggle to create my art is real.
As I was driving home less than 30 minutes ago this thought entered my mind and in the same moment I realized it is time to write about it because I have a feeling I am not the only one. And I’m hoping, wondering, wishing and praying that because of my writing something inside will shift. If the wiring in my brain shifts to “The Joy To Create My Art” that would be a huge miracle in my eyes.
Awaken The Artist 31 Day Coloring Festival
After many months of tiny baby steps in between taking care of my mother I am excited to serve. Tomorrow, April 10, 2015 is the first day of my Awaken The Artist 31 Day Coloring Festival.
I have found that our creativity needs a little help from our inner child. One of the first creative tools a child picks up is a crayon and blank paper or a coloring book. And when we are all grown up and find ourselves stuck from life’s numerous escapades the creative inner child is ready to step in.
First Day of the Rest of My Life
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
I have been practically absent from my business in a public way since June 2014 because I have been caring for my mother who was diagnosed with a moderate level of dementia. She requires help in many areas of her life including grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, doctor’s visits, bill paying and more. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be doing something like this.
Moving Through the Tough Stuff
Ever feel like it is one thing after another?! Life just keeps happening and sometimes there is no time for a breather?
These days many are experiencing a quickening in challenging life events. If you are one of them I totally feel you.
This has been my life for about 30 years. My twenties were turbulent and when I started on my healing path in 1989 things began to make some sense.
10 years ago began a new series of events and six years ago another big series and then many other since. And when I take a closer look I see that they are all very connected and
I have often wanted to write about them and the reality is that when things are happening so fast and with very little recovery time it can be easy to lose track. It is my intention to share more as I walk this path because I receive insights that help me and others. I know that by sharing my journey in the form of story and insight from the experience it is serving a larger whole.
So with that in mind….
A new series of events began the end of February.
I bought a new car out of the blue (fun and surprising mystical experience I still intend to write about!).
A couple of days later I was in the process of moving and I missed a step and sprained my foot and ankle … the worst sprain ever!
After looking for help I just had to walk on my foot, carrying boxes and pushing my way through.
My dog and I stayed in a hotel for several days and walking him was painful! I held onto cars and the side of the building and sometime sat on the curb. And it was cold and rainy and I was moving SLOW.
During this time I was in the process of selling my old car which took three days of non-stop work (driving from one side of the city to the other, trading cars and getting documents together) to make it happen. I really felt as though I was being tested.
I also felt as though I was pushing myself to the next level of inner growth. While that was nice to realize I was just tired and my sweet dog was getting confused over the continuing change from one car to the other.
I kept pushing through. I had no other choice.
Then after several weeks of testing my mother was moved into a lock-down unit of an assisted living home for dementia – very emotionally challenging.
It has been a challenging couple of months working towards acceptance of my mother’s health. All kinds of anger and grief has surfaced and keep working through it using my own processes and getting help from other energy healers
There is no other choice for me. What about you? What is your choice?
I’d love to hear.
xo
Wendy
PS. One hint to move through the rough stuff: Create Art!
Project Miscarriage: Birthing a New Reality
The other morning I was talking to my sister.
“What? You had a miscarriage? I didn’t even know you were pregnant!”
Then my eyes opened.
“What was THAT? Oh!! That had nothing to do with my sister!”
The dream was a symbol for the nightmare I had been living.
After selling my 17 year ergonomic business in 2008 I followed a calling. Over a period of years I created and offered a string of products and services and each time I began marketing them they flopped!
Every one of my project launches miscarried!
OMG. That really put things into perspective for me. I browsed my work and realized the massive amount of writing I completed. Sales pages. Optin pages. Thank you pages. Download pages. Video creation. Editing. Branding. Marketing messages. Social Media. Technical challenges. Family issues.
And then falling flat on my butt.
Doubt crept in and I lost momentum over and again. Sometimes I just wanted to give up. Does that sound familiar?
And then I realized the perfection of the entire experience.
I had been slowly dipping my toes in the water and building my confidence with each baby step and each success. One of my artist friends, Tara Dixon said “They are all baby steps.” … No truer words could be said about the process of bringing your dreams to life. We must keep going no matter what and eventually we will make great progress. The process of the work made me confront my deepest fears and beliefs so I could shift them.
The good news…
My art dream is beginning to bud. I love creating colorful art and I’m creating a new collection. 
I took my latest launch full term and we are almost midway through the course and my clients are experiencing transformations and I love serving them.
You see – a few years ago a coach told me to connect to my core gifts and that everything would spring forth from there. What gifts? What passions were at my core that I was not in touch with? These questions had me exploring who I am.
Was it easy? No! It was a slow and very painful process. I persevered on my own and eventually tapped a deeper understanding of myself and this changed EVERYTHING for me. Months later as I reflected on the previous couple of years I saw the processes I had been using on myself to heal and transform and own my artistic gifts.
I’m grateful for all the miscarried projects, birthing pains and successes. The lessons are now my teachings. I continue to do my inner work and transform my life as the unlimited being that I AM.
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Being Vulnerable About My 25 Year Healing Journey
We are still in the newness of 2014 and I wonder how everything is going for you and what new choices and actions are calling you…
ME: I am being guided to face what I’ve been resisting.
I attempted to share something for the past several years and each time I lost my nerve. This past Saturday morning something shifted and after staring at my video camera for several hours I found my courage. About midway through I felt a new sparkle of happiness move through me and I knew I made the right choice. I share something so vulnerable and that has been the driving force of my existence since 1989.
If you’ve been on a challenging path and in need of healing I invite you to watch and to share with anyone you feel could benefit.
I appreciate you and I love you.
Wendy
PS. A few times during the video I tried getting my dog to stop scratching because I thought it was interfering with the video (it wasn’t) so please excuse me for that…
Simple Mandala Drawing
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