DAY 5 – Saying YES to SELF CARE

This is the fourth time I am sitting down to write this post. It might seem like I have a block to self care but actually it is because I allowed myself some self care and have not written since Thursday so now with inspired energy I am catching up.

This post began as “Saying YES to MOTHERING ME” and transformed into the topic of SELF CARE all by itself

My first attempt was Friday night after midnight and I was too tired to write so I went to sleep. Then I made another attempt and it transformed again.

I was going to say how I am terrible at self care. But going to sleep Friday night instead of trying to write was definitely me taking care of me. And Friday when I realized I needed to rest I took a long bath and relaxed instead of forcing myself.

I even thought about how it would be nice to get out and the next day I was invited to a party and even after initially thinking about declining or even going and leaving early I went and had a wonderful time playing because that is what I chose to do before I left. That is a sign of self care if I ever saw one because normally I would say no without much advance notice (or maybe even with notice!) I choose lots and lots (& LOTS) of fun from here on out!

So I am getting better at self care. It really is about being aware of what my body/mind need are and listening.

As a child I did my best to take care of myself but it was difficult because I had so much responsibility taking care of other people. My needs were not important to others so I did not learn that my needs are important to me. It has been programmed in for so long that I have neglected myself in so many ways.

I choose to choose self care. Yes I know I used the word “choose” more than once in one sentence. I choose to use choose because I have the divine right to choose! Amen.

Self care (self love, self nurturing) is a necessary way of being in this ever evolving world.

Wendy G Young