To the Artist Living Inside of You

Published October 24, 2016 | By Wendy

If you have not already figured it out I’m an artist!

It took me a lifetime to be able to say this though.

If you think there is an artist living inside your body or you’ve not been able to fully own your artistic gifts please read my story. If I can do it so can you!

For years, friends and peers would ask me if I was an artist. They saw my artsy nature in the way I dressed, spoke and how I decorated my house. They saw my inner artist in my creativity and in the way I moved.

I was always so tickled by their questions and would think “Seriously, you think I’m an artist?”

“No not me” I’d say and completely and totally deny any artistic gift. I was simply being my creative self and thought everybody was exactly like me!

At some point after a mystical experience while creating a piece of art I started to say “I create art when I am inspired. I’m an inspired artist” but I still did not fully get it.

What I also did not realize is that the doubt that ran through every thread of my being was related to my inability to own this divine gift that everyone except me could see.

When my life stopped working I was forced to go on an inward journey of self discovery. I didn’t like it but it was where I was. I did not know what was happening except that I desperately wanted to feel better.

It took months of inner work with no help because I could not afford it and I learned that it was the best gift the universe could ever give me because I was meant to work it out on my own.

Not owning my artistic gift was a spiritual crisis. All I could do was pay attention to what was going on in my mind and body to know what my next steps were.

After a conversation with an editor I realized that it was time for me to write. It created a huge shift in me that led to several creative actions that pulled me closer to the door of owning my gift and healing at a much deeper level.

After about a month of sitting with my new awareness I finally got it. I called my graphic artist and said “I’m an artist.” She laughed and said “I knew that.” Haha. The joke was on me. At that point I shared my story with others and everyone else knew too!

This led me to a deeper embodiment of owning my inner artist and creating freely. I drew mandalas and flowers for weeks and then I lost all my drawings. I was heartbroken and then realized the gift was that it allowed me to grieve the sadness I had held in my body from not creating art as a child.

Now I was ready to move forward and I created an entire mandala coloring book in less than 30 days … long before the coloring book trend.

A few months later I reflected and saw the entire process that helped me let go of my creative blocks to making art on a consistent basis and to love and appreciate my art and gift. Working from this empowered space allowed me to create 20 times more art in a few years than I created in 20 years and my art continues to evolve in various collections.

After coaching a few people privately and leading my first group class based on my Awaken The Artist material I took some time to care for my mother who had been diagnosed with dementia.

I dealt with a tremendous amount of challenges during this time yet made sure that my mother was given the best care possible.

The creation of art helped me move through grief, dramatic situations with others and healed my physical body from the severe stress. It gave me something to look forward to when things were bleak and it was a form of meditation and self care.

Art continuously takes me to deeper places inside and higher places in my life experience.

Happily, I am fully immersed in my work again and on a mission to help others heal their lives through art and move through the blocks keeping them creatively stuck.

Is that you?

If so, I will be leading my Awaken The Artist in Your Heart FREE call series again to help you move your creative blocks out of the way. It starts tomorrow, Oct 25th.