Today I picked my mom at her memory care and took her out for a bit. It is never easy going there and I’m always praying she will be happy to see me. I was aware of feeling some grief right below the surface but it was stuck.
On the way home after taking my mom back I forced myself to feel those feelings. I suppose I pushed them to the surface so I could feel and release them. It was only for a couple of minutes yet I felt so much better. Writing, making art, exercising, resting and meditating all help in their own way.
My iLoVeU design is the addition to the painting I created 25 years ago of which you can only see a part of. I was taking a painting class series and chose to do my own thing and purchase a large canvas, paint it and then share it with my teacher.
She told me that it was not finished and I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to do with it until recently.
I outlined my iLoVeU design to begin and I am considering what I’m going to do with it next. I want to blend it into the painting … or maybe not. Maybe I will let it stand out on the painting. It can be a metaphor for me working on standing out in this world of Art and Coaching and living a good life in every way imaginable.
This iLoVeU was painted in May 2016 right before I started liquidating my mother’s house. It was nice to have a small amount of creativity playtime…still a bit more work to complete..
Day 8 – Only LOVE 💖
This is a chalk drawing I created a while before moving out of my house. For some reason creating with chalk felt like cheating for me. I definitely did not feel like an artist and using chalk was giving the young, forgotten artist a playground. I suppose I did not see chalk as a medium that real artists would use. Anyway. I know I’m an artist and this is real art.
I began a journey of adult coloring in 2005 when working through the emotional and financial challenges in my business. I purchased a few mandala coloring books and when they arrived I was excited to begin.
I then found it challenging to choose which symmetrical design to begin with and which colors to use and discovered this was a helpful exercise to practice mindfulness as I worked through my inner struggle with life situations.
As I colored my way through the intricate patterns I moved closer to the part of myself that had been calling for attention. Coloring was like massaging my soul. It softened my resistance and led me to my deeper calling of drawing and painting and to the creations of hundreds of designs, some of which you are about to color in this 2017 Inspirational Almanac.
Here is what I have learned from coloring over the years…
Coloring is a creative form of artful, self expression that heals us at a cellular level. It quiets and relaxes the mind and helps us develop and evolve our creativity. We begin with a structure (a drawing) to work from – choosing colors, blending, doodling – which enables us to connect to our courage and confidence.
Coloring is like food for the soul that enters our cells as positive frequencies clearing out creative blocks and reminding us of our truth. As we gain clarity and purpose we are able to hear our intuition and take inspired action.
• Guides you into alignment with your truth, expanding your resourcefulness.
• Opens channels of creative solutions for life challenging situations.
• Connects you to deeper levels of your soul consciousness and callings.
I encourage the colorist to take time and connect to the details of the chosen drawing and choose colors that feel good. The depth of the engagement with our coloring corresponds to our deepening sense of who we are as infinite, creative beings.
As time went on I realized that coloring connected me to my creative self while dissolving fear and giving me something pleasureable to focus on. I was creating something colorful and beautiful that made me feel good and meditating on my finished piece helped me feel satisfied and complete.
So give it a try. Let your inner colorist out. And who knows. Coloring may lead you to Awaken The Artist in your heart like it did for me!
If you want to read more about coloring and watch my process pay attention to this blog for updates, videos and more about coloring!
Ok I know this is going to sound a bit strange at first. Just hear me out!
When I woke up recently I found myself staring up at the ceiling fan! For some reason it mesmerized me and it brought me into a heightened state of consciousness. All of a sudden the concept of my success and perhaps surpassing the success of my father came up.
It was just a simple little bit of information that bubbled up inside of me.
The next day I woke up and consciously put my attention on the ceiling fan and realized this allowed more information to surface. It is like there were two parts at play here….the part that was telling me to focus and the part that was surfacing the information!
As I had the realization about this old belief I started to cry! I love it when I cry because I know I am releasing old stuck emotions and this has enabled me to grab a bit more of my power and step deeper into my worthiness. It opens more of my creativity and inspiration to flow. It allows me to breathe deeper.
Over the years I pondered the possibility that perhaps I made a choice to not pass up my father in wealth and this experience affirmed it. And just this week I attempted to have a conversation with him about money and it created an emotional reaction in him. Then I have this experience. Really interesting stuff.
Several weeks ago I called a therapist who helped me over a period of many years and told him about the emotions and buried thoughts that had been bubbling up from my childhood over the past year. These were things that I always remembered just there were particular details that were making themselves known to me so that I could release and move on.
What he told me was that the gift of all the work that I have been doing over the past 20 years was to get to do this work too! Thanks! So the gift of doing our work is more work!
However it is all good. He told me that this was the last leg of my work. Lots of cleaning and tweaking. So much more about my life makes much more sense now.
And the awesome part is that it is leading me right into my purpose work. It makes such complete sense that cleaning out the cobwebs from the past is necessary to serve in a bigger way than I have.
And that is one reason why I am excited about 2011!
I have been feeling increased compassion for my father. He is 85 and has worked very hard his entire life. He is still going at it running his small business. Everyday … the weekends too … he works. Whether it is doing paperwork or seeing clients or vendors he is constantly working. Except when he is watching football or playing with his stamp collection or listening to his favorite radio station!
Though many times he is working in the background. I have watched him work like this since my childhood and see that he has been a source of my inspiration to get started in business so young in my life. Thank you Dad!
I would say I’d like to make it easier for my Dad (and for my Mom for that matter!) yet he would tell me that he is enjoying his life … though I am sure he would accept any gifts I may give him!
This morning as I am working on a project I am feeling excitement. I see myself looking at everything as creation and adventure and as I feel the passion of that moment. It is getting me to my next moment where I can create and feel passion. It is about continuing to climb the ladder of passion. That is where success is!
Thank you for reading and allowing me to be more authentic! Writing is so healing and really locks in the learning and creates more shifts. I would love to hear your comments!
In Deep Gratitude, Love and Inspiration!
Have you ever wondered why there seems to be so much “contrast” in your life?
Well here is the PERFECT answer!!
I just ran across this video from Esther and Jerry Hicks…
It is REALLY worth a watch!!!
Now that was great!
A few days ago I had the pleausure of being interviewed about the topic of LOVE! THAT was really interesting to me because what do I really know about the topic of LOVE?
There are so many kinds of love…or are there? I guess it really depends on your perspective.
I mean there is romantic love. It does not matter who you are… I am sure romantic love has affected you. If you are like most romantic love has made your heart soar and it may have felt crushed a time or two. How much in control are we when it comes to this type of love? Hm, I wonder…
I believe the stronger the love we have for ourselves the better the relationship. And when the relationship with another is non-existant it is the love for ourselves that really counts. We cannot receive love from others unless we first give it to ourselves. That can be tricky.
Yesterday on Valentine’s Day my brother and sister-in-law renewed their marriage vows after 5 years. It was so wonderful to see how happy and in love they are. Does it mean that it is all perfect? No but they are committed to each other
What about love for your immediate family? Your siblings, children, parents? Sometimes the key here is “Do you like them?!” Too often the hurts in our immediate family causes pain that can last an entire lifetime. I have certainly had my experiences with this!
On a deep level you love them but cannot seem to get along. Families are blessed with people of all shapes, perceptions, ideas and this can create challenges. How do you handle it when love goes wrong in your family?
Then there is the love of friends, teachers, students, pets. They all seem like a different kind of love but love is love, right?
Did you know that when your heart expresses love towards another you are expressing love towards yourself. It is not possible to be expressing love for another without feeling it inside of your heart.
Then there is the vibration of love. David Hawkins speaks about this in his book Power Vs Force. It takes only a small group of people vibrating at the frequency of love to help raise the vibration of thousands! So here we are talking about the healing power of love.
What an opportunity for me to talk about my iLoveU image located on this blog. This is a Ho’oponopono healing design. If you meditate on it you will feel a shift in your body. Funny as I was typing this I was visualizing this design and felt a shiver fun through my body as just the mere vision of the design in your head has healing power.
I know you may be wondering what in the world I am talking about. Well soon i will be sharing more about my iLoveU design: how it was created and how to use its healing powers in the areas of money, business, relationships and whatever else you want healing in.
So I am wondering, what can you do today in the way of love?
Looking forward to hearing from you!
This past weekend I was on my Facebook page and received an IM from the other side of the world from a man that thought I could help him. He had no idea it was 6:21am on Saturday morning and that I had practically just opened my sleepy eyes but I chatted with him for a bit.
He told me that relationships are very difficult for him. I could feel his sadness. He told me that someone like me would not know anything like that. Yet I explained to him that I had been where he is now and with practice relationships have become much easier for me over the years. Sometime though knowing a tool can make all the difference in the world.
It appeared that he was focusing on exactly what he did not want so of course that is going to bring him even more of what he does not want and more heartache. Without getting into all the implications of the Law of Attraction I suggested that he simply take some time that day and write down exactly what he wanted in a romantic relationship. He said that he would do that so I could feel that he was open to hearing some advice.
Then I felt this intuitive zing to suggest that he begin loving himself more. I had no idea how he was going to react or respond to this as I know nothing about him. Yet I felt the nudge to mention this because if we desire someone to love us then we must love ourselves first. We must BE that loving person we want to attract in our life.
His response….”I am going to take a bold step!” That is what he said. It did not take much time at all. He made a decision based upon a simple suggestion.
What a great way to start my day!
A few hours later I was in a conversation with a Twitter friend and the idea of beingness came up. She had mentioned that she would like to be in a continual place of being instead of the bouts of beingness that she currently experiences.
I told her that all was in perfect order and that those bouts of being are the perfect place for her to begin moving forward towards the place she wants to be…
And here is her response… “Everything is perfect for me to be in that state of beingness I want right now.”
Both of them are very fast learners! Yeah for them and yeah for the rest of the world! The more we love ourselves and stay in that place of beingness the more we inspire those around us to take these same actions. It is the ripple effect.
This is a perfect time to practice as Barack Obama begins his term in office tomorrow. We are all in this together and it begins with ME!
What are some ways that you display love towards yourself?
Tell me about your bouts of beingness.
Look forward to your comments on my blog!
Wendy B Young